Try or Do

When you hear that others in recovery are "doing the best" they possibly can...what does that mean to you? Power, success, determination, moving forward, or even living life?  I get all excited when I hear others say that they are "doing their best". When you here others who have battles to fight say they are "trying their best" what comes to mind for you? I believe that there is no "try your best", but only that "you are doing your best" Trying gives you so many outs.  It gives you the okay to sit exactly where you are and never move on.  Trying is a great word that many use when they are "stuck" in the illness.  Many, many years ago I felt that I didn't need to "give it my best" as long as I was "trying". I told others that I was "trying" to recover, I was "trying" to use my coping skills, I was "trying" to get my healthy back. I was just "trying" which is what I thought all that mattered...well, I have to say I was very wrong about this. One day the "trying" got really boring and I decided to change for "try" to "do"  I actually had to push myself and just go after recovery with all I had in me.  Instead of sitting in the same place, I put forth all my effort and more and started the "self discovery" part of recovery.I was learning so much about myself that I didn't realize. I was facing my fears and anxieties head on with no turning back. If the expectation was for me to stop something...I just did! I will do whatever is asked of my team and tackle that task, and follow through till the very end no matter how hard, no matter how difficult, or even how scary it may be.  I gave my recovery 200% I would of never been able to survive my eating disorder if it wasn't for my team pushing me to go beyond, believing in me, and never once did they give up on me. So, tonight are you going to "try" to recover or are you going to "give it your best" to make recovery a reality?  It will be worth it in the end.  As some say that recovery is not a destination, but a journey...that couldn't be more true than NOW